Wednesday, March 4, 2015

#DEARME - to the 14 year old me

To the girl in the obviously-too-small Taking Back Sunday shirt,

I know you're tired of being "different" than everyone else. You like different music and TV shows, you have different sense of humour - for God's sake, I know you just finished re-reading Fight Club for the 3rd time.
I also know that you're desperately trying to not eat anything that anyone offers you. You're hungry most of the times, which is why you're angry most of the times.
I know that the biggest concern you have in your life at the moment is to look just like everyone else but... Just. Stop.

The thing is, you're never going to be just like everyone else.
You'll grow up and go to university and get a job and somehow in between all that, you realise that being different is not so bad after all.
You'll still laugh at bad jokes that no one understands and your idea of a romantic postcard is a picture of 2 bread dancing next to each other with the word "let's grow mould together".
You'll also squeal with glee when you find out that Fall Out Boy is playing a show near you at a somewhat affordable price, and guess what, you will spread some nutella on your buttered toast every morning for breakfast!

It's going to be ok.

The world is a crazy, funny, somewhat unfair at times, and an amazingly beautiful place to live in!
I'm not saying that it's going to be easy - some days you'll feel like the whole world is against you and the only seemingly sensible thing to do is cry.
So cry. Cry when you're sad, or when that song comes on Spotify, when it's pouring down outside or even when it's sunny.
But cherish each beautiful moment because you know how dark it can get and be thankful for that.
Be gentle on yourself, you are trying your very best to do the best possible thing you can do.
I promise to you that life gets better and you, my friend, are worth it.

With love,
Your seemingly wiser and older self.